Inside the Public-Private Gap

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There is a question almost no one asks a woman over fifty who has built something.

Not “what do you want for the company.”

She answers that one in her sleep.

Not “what do you want for your daughters, your team, the next quarter.”

She has a slide for each of those.

The question is simpler and much harder.

What do you want?

She cannot answer it on the first try.

Not because she does not know.

Because she has spent thirty years becoming exceptionally good at wanting quietly, in a register nobody around her can hear.

It begins early and reasonably.

A young woman with ambition learns that the fastest way through a door is to want what the room wants.

She wants the deal closed.

She wants the numbers right.

She wants the client calm.

Her own preferences get filed somewhere quieter, to be revisited later, when there is time.

There is never time.

And the filing system becomes so efficient that eventually she stops noticing it is running.

By fifty she has a company, a reputation, a marriage or the memory of one, and a private life that looks, from the outside, complete.

She is the woman other women describe as having it together.

She has been dependable for decades.

And underneath all of it, in the place she does not visit, there is still something she wants that she has never said out loud.

Sometimes it is a person.

A woman she cannot stop thinking about, whose name she keeps finding reasons to say.

She calls it admiration.

She calls it a friendship that means a great deal to her.

She calls it anything but what she already knows it is.

Sometimes it is a life.

Slower. Softer. Less performed.

Mornings that belong to her.

A home where she does not have to be the strong one.

Touch that is not an obligation.

Sometimes it is simply the truth.

To say one sentence, to one person, and have it land somewhere safe.

What these wants have in common is that none of them are unreasonable.

What makes them feel impossible is not their size.

It is that she has no room to say them in.

Here is what I understand about desire in this season of a woman’s life, from my own years of carrying it and from the women who found their way to me long before this was a practice.

It does not go away because it was inconvenient.

It waits.

It shows up as restlessness she blames on the business.

As a tightness in her chest during a dinner she used to enjoy.

As the long drive she takes with no destination.

As lying awake at three in the morning, not worried about anything she can name.

Her body has been carrying what she has not yet said.

And desire, when it has been quiet this long, does not arrive as a crisis.

It arrives as a message.

Often the first honest one her life has sent her in years.

The mistake is treating it as a problem to manage rather than information to receive.

Picture her on a Thursday evening at the Art Institute, in the quiet gallery where the Chagall windows are.

Blue light.

A bench.

Nobody she knows.

She has come here alone for years, and she has never once told anyone why.

It is the one place in the city where she does not have to be the woman who runs things.

For twenty minutes she lets herself want what she wants, in silence, in front of glass that asks nothing of her.

Then she stands up, straightens her jacket, and goes back to the life she manages beautifully.

That bench is the closest thing to a private room most women ever get.

It should not have to be that way.

A woman who has built a company deserves at least one room where she can say what she actually wants, in her own words, without being required to act on it.

She does not have to change her marriage that day.

Tell her board.

Explain herself to the community she serves.

Make an announcement.

Choose a label.

Not yet.

Not until she decides what, if anything, comes next.

That room is not a stage.

It is not a support group.

It is not a screen with her face on it and nine strangers listening.

It is one private conversation, by phone, with a woman who has lived this and who will not label her, rush her, or turn what she says privately into a decision she has to make publicly.

In that room, the question is not:

“What should you do?”

It is:

“What do you want?”

And then the harder one:

“How long have you wanted it?”

The answers change everything, slowly, and from the inside.

Nobody watching would see a thing.

She would feel all of it.

Quiet truth is still truth.

And what she wants does not require an immediate decision.

But it does deserve one place where she no longer has to pretend she doesn’t want it.

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You do not have to decide what comes next. You only need one private place to say what you want.

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Chrisha Mitchell is a Private Identity Advisor to women founders, attorneys, physicians, and business owners over 50 navigating a private truth that is beginning to shape their leadership, visibility, and the life and business they’ve built.

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